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Jul. 24th, 2006 @ 12:45 am Good song
Current Mood: artistic
I black out in the room again,
Busted lip and broken skin
I wake up in the bedroom,
I dare not bother asking
Why the mirror's cracked
And all I see
Are shards of glass inside of me
A voice is there to dare me
My father's here to scare me
And my mother sits beyond the door,
She's curled up, crying on the floor
"Look at what our son's done,
The weight of all the world's gone wrong."

Liars leave a guilty trail
And I've lied for years
That must be why I'm sitting
In this space,
Disregarding I've created monsters
On both my sides,
And I wipe the blood from both their eyes,
From all four of their eyes
And while I wait for wounds to heal,
I see you by the window sill
Your heart tore out,
A plastic spoon
That honesty lit up the room
And I took the pillowcase to clean
The mess I'd made of someone's dream
Now you see what I have done,
When the weight of all the world's gone wrong
Gone wrong...
Gone wrong...
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Jun. 4th, 2006 @ 10:25 pm recently
Current Mood: awake
My book has gotten many compliments. mostly all good, some jus on how i spell...bad grammer they call it. but whatever, i want it to be real, to seem real, how i live and it's how i express myself. so screw you grammer geeks!
anywayz, tony's comin down FINALLY....i've been on tour for awhile just rockin out. hopefully got another record comin out soon. we need money lol. but it's a good life.
i heard from my father the other day....it was weird, it's been so long. he's happy taht i'm happy but u can totally tell he's dissapointed in my lifestyle. oh well...screw the bastered. he wonders why i left the house so fast, it was to get out of his damn way, stop getting beaten for every single thing, get blamed for drinking his alcohol when it was HIM but he was so drunk he couldn't remember...sory..wow..
i'm not really mad. just proud that i can now prove to him that i don't need him/
off to chill wit my boys
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Mar. 15th, 2006 @ 07:06 am damn
Current Mood: aggravated
oh shit...i really fucked up... first time i ever expressed my feelings, what did i think her response was going to be like? she already has someone...why would i want to screw that up? i don't, now that she knows, the more i think about her, the more i dream about her and the more i want her...damn it..why!!
why does she have to be so god damn perfect...
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Feb. 11th, 2006 @ 12:23 am too long
Current Mood: busy
Current Music: counting crows
hahaha yah it's been awhile but i don't have much time, i'm on the road a lot and have tons of gigs.
last weekend was sweet. carlye came to our concert and hung out...she did throw up which was bad.. but she wasn't sick.. we also threw her in the pool with her clothes on.. sorry we ruined your shoes carlye!!! it was sweet. and while everyone was so drunk and high. i just had a few drinks since C wasn't drinking i decided not to since she was my guest. but i had an awesome time anyways. i almost forgot how much fun u can have not being drunk!
v-day is coming up.. ;-)
what are yall doing to celebrate?
..later
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Jan. 2nd, 2006 @ 04:03 pm well well
Current Mood: silly
Last week was an awesome party at Ryan's....Although I didn't see too much of him OR his gf.... i wonder why ;-). his house is so fucking huge it's amazing. 3 floors and a basement. so fo course i got drunk.. even tho i wasn't suppose to, i was celebrating!! all of us got soooo drunk i decided to go streaking!!!! of course when i went outside and started shouting ppl called the cops and they chased me butt naked but i got off with indecent exposure bla bla bla ..basically all i gotta do is pay a fine. they were easy on me since i was very polite to them..hahaha.. anyway the only one that didn't drink was carlye because.."andrew isn't here, he wouldn't like me drinking with yall"..excuses excuses.. but all in all it was a great time.
well i'm in re-hab now so maybe it'll work.. who knows? lol but for now..'im out
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Dec. 22nd, 2005 @ 12:07 am Suppp
Current Mood: cheerful
Happy upcoming holidays everyone. Have a good one ;-)
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Nov. 22nd, 2005 @ 11:46 pm I'M FREE
Current Mood: drunk
Current Music: sniay-pieay
so...jail...3 months, let out on good behavior.. not bad...lol coulda been more if i had pot on me which i gave up so obviously i didn't get charged with that for once! heh...oh damn..so tony's in town! sweetness! i feel bad, tonight we were suppose to meet andrew, carlye's lover, but we thought it wsan't until wed. night so we went out on the town....oops...sorry!!!! wings woulda been really good too...damn...anyway just updating since i havn't in forever...
peace out
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Oct. 16th, 2005 @ 10:24 pm traveling back home
Current Mood: hungry
Current Music: Drum diddle
partying in new york is the shizz.. it was awesome playing the band up there and getting to hang with tony. even tho some night he had to stay in since he had to.."study"...study my @$$. i guess there's this girl he's still interested in.. so to stay in alone some nights kinda gets me wondering what he's really doing. I sually didn't get back to his place till...oh..4 AM.. ;-) ya.. crazy girls up there.
i guess city highs homecoming was this weekend? how was it? and west's was the week b4..but no one cares about west i guess..lol hmmm
i sent in my book
i got..$30 left for food and gas...i hope i make it home..
i'm in illinois right now...can't wait to get back home.. carlye we hope you're having another halloween party this year sowe cna coome crash it and meet your boi haha..
anyway..be safe kids..
out
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Sep. 13th, 2005 @ 04:22 pm why has it been so long?!
Current Mood: relaxed
Current Music: harder corn
band is rockin! i got a new van which we will ride to new york and rock out there for awhile. MAYBE.. hopefully...Since tony is now in college over there we decided to vist him. two in a half weeks, i can't wait.
so bet you're asking what stupid things i've done this past month? and unfortunatly i can't say anything too dramatic. just been partyin, drinking a lil...hookin up ;-) 4 girls in 2 weeks...fuck yes!
my book is goin well. almost done! yep, that's me..out
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Aug. 27th, 2005 @ 10:55 am ouch
Current Mood: sore
Current Music: yo diggidy
my eyebrow peircing is infected.....

i went 2 weeks without sleep...ok i took a nap for like..4 hours once..but that didn't count..we decided. it was fun, we finally got to the point by the 4th night where we got sleep deprived and it felt like we were high. it was funny
being high... i barely think about doing it not adays..getting drunk is a different story lol
port o potty tipping isn't cool...specially if you're the guy in it..stupid fags
i'm out
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Aug. 7th, 2005 @ 01:01 pm haha
Current Mood: horny
Current Music: Shints
We met this really hot chick in Mass. Her name is Cristine. Her friends are hot also. But I only did this pic because crab was the only one who knows how to do it and only had time to do one pic because he's bla bla bla had to work..maybe more will come later..Too bad she was mostly interested in Tony.. But she's hot


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Aug. 6th, 2005 @ 12:20 pm stuffed full
Current Mood: giddy
Current Music: Don't Speak
So Josh, crab, tony and i had an eating contest of...u name it, Spam. We bought 80 cartons of it and tryed to eat the most. guess who won?! HAHAHA! that's right ME with eating 31 cartons...it was sweet. crab is such a pussy, he stopped on like 4, tony came in 3rd place with 11 and josh with 22 and a half. then he barfed..acually everyone did cept me. i guess i coulda kept going..only not really, it was getting pretty nasty.
the smell hits ya after like the 6th one.
after that we just got all drunk of our asses and layed around.
HEY I QUIT! its totally official..it's awesome lol. don't do pot kids...jst take it from me
i'm halfway done with my book..it's like 110 pages..it's amazing how much i've gotten done and i'm not even done!
i still say screw college..i shouldn't though cause i hope everyone does.. my band is doing good, getting gigs here and there
i'm done

btw..NO ONE COMMENTS ANYMORE WHAT'S WITH THAT!
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Jul. 26th, 2005 @ 10:49 pm home sweet home
Current Mood: sore
Current Music: shizz
yay i'm home everyone! WITH TONY!!!! yes! hahaha we've been having fun times.
last night i was looking at my feet and thinking how strange feet really are..i mean seriously..think about it

dude u should update more often
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Jul. 14th, 2005 @ 03:35 pm sooooo
Current Mood: creative
Current Music: Big Star
we went roof hopping ...it took us forever to find out how to get on top cause we never did in CO... it was sweet...till this guy saw us and called the cops...shit.. spent night in jail even tho we didn't really DO anything.. It was totally worth it tho.. Coming home tomororw i think.. ya.. we only got like $200 left to get us one more night and gas money& food to get back home.

we saw a big horn sheep... if was halarious..only i almost kinda died...again.. i was messin around with it, i didn't know it would get so mad! i was just imitating it.. now there's this big dent in my car..damn
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Jul. 1st, 2005 @ 11:27 pm duuuuuuude
Current Mood: amused
Current Music: goin through my head
in colorado with tony...haha good times not sure how long we'll stay here till we return to iowa, i like colorado...nice mountains ha..ha
no wedding rings at a wedding? how ridiculous...
random thought
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Jun. 27th, 2005 @ 05:07 pm ~relaxed sigh~
Current Mood: dorky
Current Music: funk punk
ahhh summer..where love is in the air, birds are chirping, the sun is shining and i'm hittin the clubs, meetin women, bumpin and grindin, drinkin and smokin...only..not..i mean the girls and clubs is rihgt..the drinkin a lil and smoking not at all
i decided to write a book bout my expiriences..my dad, my smoking, my bad ass dares, drugs...everything..i wonder how that will turn out

idk what else to put so i guess till later
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Jun. 21st, 2005 @ 03:36 pm aint it funny
Current Mood: annoyed
Current Music: bang la
so i was in the hospital....I ODed on alchol..funny aint it how just when i thought things would get better after me quitting smoking pot that they just turned for the worse? they pumped my stomach..seroiusly one of the worst feelings in the world.
so does this mean that i have to stop drinking too?....damn!! why are all the illegal things in the world fun the most fun?

hmmmmm
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Jun. 16th, 2005 @ 02:27 pm i'm dyiiing
Current Mood: drained
Current Music: i need pot- to song of 3 blind mice
nneeeeed pot...must get pot..holy fuck, this is so much harder then i thouhgt...almost what, a month? oh shit... ahhhhhh~!!!!!!!!!!!!
i've gained 5 lbs since when i need pot i eat...and eat and eat constantly.. someone help..i have GOT to get some pot

(only not cause i'm quitting QUITTING!!!)
i think i have schitso...can't spell i'm done and out
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Jun. 8th, 2005 @ 07:08 pm i need to update
Current Mood: lethargic
Current Music: chingy ching
so now that school has been out my band and i are practicing a lot more cept for ryan since he's taking over the summer college class courses...doush....just kidding!......anyway college sucks totally not going, maybe in a couple years if the band crashes. but i doubt it
alright so here's the big news: I'm quitting smokeing pot. It totally ruined my life, I mean I'm totally ruining my life by not going to college but i'm so gosh darn addicted to it that it's all i wanna do, get high and play in my band. Pot really fucks ya up. plus my 2nd dealer got busted so i'm outta luck on that.
ya that's it...
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May. 27th, 2005 @ 10:56 pm i'm retarded
Current Mood: silly
Current Music: crush pine
tonight i randomly went to carlye's house. she was sitting downstairs working on a puzzle watching superstar, no surprize so i went in and we had a few laughs, hid in the closet for 20 min...jacked off in there lol (jk carlye!) umm then i tryed to help her with the puzzle but she woulnd't let me touch it! she thouhgt i would start eating it for some strange reason...:-\... don't know where she got that idea. so i just got home from there and it was really fun.
prob. getting stoned this weekend.
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